Basic Training Excerpt: 21JUN14

21JUNE14 19:47

So I’m going to write a little differently tonight, I want to write more on a reflection of what I have learned at basic thus far. I’m going to call today’s review, “Whom Shall I Fear.” — What do I fear and worry about in life? Right now for me it’s Drill Sergeants and getting mail. Drill Sergeants act like they are our god. And essentially they are. They control every last little thing we do. The only thing we have control of is our thoughts and even that, they can have some kind of control of. If we don’t do what they say they can punish us through working out for as long and as hard as they want. It is very easy to be stressed out by them and to fear them and even more, give them control of how they make us feel. It’s really easy to give them control after two hours of working out and you are at complete muscle failure and they are still yelling at you. They act like they are god and it is all to easy to give them that control over us. But check this, Luke 15:13, “May the God of hope fill you with ALL joy & peace in believing.” On top of that, who created life, and who can do all things? Who holds control of our soul? Is it our drill sergeants? No. It’s God above. What we have to realize is, no matter how much control our drill sergeants, or really anyone, has over us, their power over us was given to them by God. Like Pontius Pilate & Jesus. Pilate really had no say whether or not Jesus would be crucified, that control was in God’s hands. He just used Pilate for His will. The thing is, no one, no situation, nothing has control over us that is not God or has been given by God. It doesn’t matter how bad a situation is, God can do anything but you got to have faith that He can & will. Look at the characters in the bible, especially during Jesus’ time. One women was healed simply because she had faith if she touched Jesus’ robes that she would be healed, and several people who were dead[when writing this, I head dead people confused with sick people], were raised to life simply cause someone had enough faith to seek Jesus for help. We have to make our requests known to God. At basic over and over gain, I’ve been doing that and God has been providing. The time that comes to mind[found here] first is when our drill sergeant was super mad at us. He told us we were going to die tonight cause he was going to smoke us all night when we get back to our bay. So I prayed right away and I felt this reassurance from God that He would take care of it through His power & we wouldn’t have to get smoked. So a few hours pass & we get back to the bay. Our drill sergeant is still mad and promises we won’t be getting any sleep cause he will be smoking us all night. So he has all line up to get smoked. I pray again and remembered what God had told me earlier, so I kept faith. Then our drill sergeant had to go downstairs. He left and we were all dead silent. He came back up maybe 15 mins later. He tells us all to go to bed and that we are lucky because the commander told him we have to go to bed and that he’s not allowed to smoke us that night. The thing is we have to have faith. There is nothing in any situation that He can’t do. We have to realize who really has control. It’s God. Nothing else in life. Nothing. If our God is for us, who can stand against?

— An hour before I wrote this, I was a little depressed because our drill sergeant had left already without getting us our mail which would mean we would have to wait until monday night to get our mail. I’ve been waiting all week to hopefully get mail. Well, as soon as I finished writing, ‘Who can stand against’ I put this notebook away. Then 2 mins later, a different drill sergeant came up into our bay and gave us our mail! I was ecstatic, but it gets even better. I only got one letter, and it was from my parents for my birthday. The card had just arrived today! All week long I’ve been praying that our drill sergeant would hand out our mail, but he never did. Today I got mail, so a different drill sergeant came up and gave us our mail.

I can’t imagine how depressed I would have been if everyday we got handed our mail and I wouldn’t have gotten anything until today. There are two lessons I learn from this. Again, God is always in control looking out for us and that nobody can stand in the way of Him and two, patience. God is faithful to our prayers when we have faith and trust in Him. But sometimes we need to wait, be patient because the timing just ins’t right yet and He is protecting us. If we are faithful to Him in the small things, He will be faithful to us in the big things even though we don’t deserve it. If our God is for us, who can stand against?

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Basic Training Excerpt: 14JUN15

Excerpt from Basic Training:

14JUNE15

Dear God,

Three emotions: Tired , Peaceful, Actually, let’s just leave it at two. I’ll start with tired. I’ve been so sick lately and my body has had so many different problems, no sleep and I’ve lost 10-15 pounds already. I’m just exhausted but honestly, that’s really minor compared to the peace you’ve given me. The amount of times you’ve answered my prayers is crazy. Tonights dinner situation blew my mind, which it shouldn’t have admittedly. I get in line for chow and not knowing what we could be eating, I prayed for your blessing and for you to provide me with my favorite choices since we aren’t allowed to choose. So I prayed for you to give me the best and I decided that even if I didn’t get what I wanted, I would trust that you would give me what’s best for me. So I got to the food and I got served everything I didn’t want, but I thought, “Hey, that’s fine because I prayed and am trusting you.” I go sit down and so did a bunch of others, then randomly someone like six people down said, “Hey, Huffman! You want to switch plants?” I looked at what he had and it was everything I wanted! Thank you so much for providing to me all ways. It’s seriously overwhelming. Thank you. Love you so much!

 

 

Oh yeah, and just a few days ago our drill sergeant was super mad at us and told us he was going to kill us that night and keep us up all night working out constantly, and that some of us would quit for sure. So obviously I prayed to you and you told me to just trust you no matter what, so I did. Well we got back to our rooms at midnight and our drill sergeant puts us on the line to smoke us all night. I remembered to trust you, so I did. He leaves us for 15 minutes. We are stuck on the line silent and at the position of attention until he gets back. As soon as he got back, he said, “You’re lucky. The battalion commander won’t let me smoke you all night. Get to your bunk now!” Again, I was just overwhelmed by you again. I would write more pages, but I’m going to read now. Love you, goodnight!

 

 

 

Psalm 56:4
I praise God for what he has promised.
I trust in God, so why should I be afraid?
What can mere mortals do to me?
everything.

Confession # 7 (Revisited)

Original Post
Age: 16

I don’t trust God and that is what is stunting me, along with feeling that God doesn’t love me… (I’m from confession 7, I think). 😦


My Comment:

As before. I will pray. You understand how great our God is right? Everything there is in this world, and the universe was made by Him in the blink of an eye. He also suffered death for us all. He humbled himself and became man and was ridiculed for our sake. Now with all that in mind, why would He allow you to feel the way you do? This guy died for you, shouldn’t He be doing everything He could to protect you? Shouldn’t He be doing everything He can to make you feel loved? The truth is, He does love you. To ask anymore from Him is actually selfishness on our sakes, the guy died for us after all. He sees something in you that you don’t. He sees strength inside of you that you don’t even see. He sees a future for you that you can’t even imagine. The pain you go through now is only temporarily, it feels like forever, it feels never ending, like there is no light at the end of the tunnel, like there just isn’t an end. But it is all a place of growing so that you can shine light in other people’s tunnel down the road. You have to trust Him. If you can’t trust the God of the bible, who can you trust?


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The Ugly Truth

I wanted to rehit a past proverb today.

Proverbs3:5

Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;

Something I have been thinking about lately is if I were Jesus, how would I have been wanted to be born into this world? I think I would want to be born into a rich family, that way I could afford all the modern technologies so I could evangelize efficiently. I would have wanted to be good looking, maybe not the best looking, but good enough to be noticed and respected. I would definitely want to be accepted by others. I would want a lot of twitter, facebook, and blog followers. I would want a big church, or at least some sort of central location. And the list goes on.

But you know, that’s not how it was. Jesus was born to a poor family, in a town where nothing good comes from. In terms of his physical appearance:

Isaiah 53:2

..He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to him,
nothing in his appearance that we should desire him.

Jesus was not accepted by others

Isaiah 53:3

He was despised and rejected by mankind,
a man of suffering, and familiar with pain.
Like one from whom people hide their faces
he was despised, and we held him in low esteem.

There was nothing attractive or desirable about this man. He wasn’t given this huge platform to work from, in fact He didn’t have anything on His side! The odds were against Him.

But yet all the time in our life, we tell God “If only I had more money,” “If only I had more time,” “If only I had the newest iPhone,” “If only I had more blog views,” “If only I had more twitter followers,” “If only I had more friends,” “If only I had that job, or that promotion,” “If only….” Our “If only…”s and our excuses could go on forever.

Jesus did have one thing on His side. He had God, and He trusted in God. Look at what Jesus accomplished because of God. He changed the world. He didn’t have all the qualifications what we believe we need to share Christ to others, He just had God.

To take this one step further, we often think of ourselves as God. Not intentionally, but we feel like we know what’s best for us and we feel like we know what has to happen in order for us to follow Christ best.

The ugly truth is, you don’t know what’s best for you. How can we question our Creator who made the universe and everything in it. The God who made you, science, and math. The Father who loves you unconditionally, even despite all of your wrongs. Our God is so big, how can we even begin to understand what is best for us and question the circumstances we are in?

Trust in the Creator

The Earth seen from Apollo 17.

Proverbs 3:19 – 20 (NIV)

By wisdom the Lord laid the earth’s foundations,
by understanding he set the heavens in place;
by his knowledge the watery depths were divided,
and the clouds let drop the dew.

Proverbs 3:19-20 (KJV)

The Lord by wisdom hath founded the earth; by understanding hath he established the heavens.
By his knowledge the depths are broken up, and the clouds drop down the dew.

I am amazed by how great the Lord is! I have a hard time doing simple things right. How many of you have done a do it yourself project? Maybe you built a dresser, a chair, a bookshelf, or anything that came with the supplies and instructions? How did that go? When I attempt any of these things, I always do something wrong, break a part, or use the wrong screws. How many have tried a new recipe? Did it turn out well? The point is, even with full instructions and supplies we aren’t always the best at creating things.

The Lord on the other hand, in His infinite wisdom, can do it perfectly. From scratch, from literally nothing He made everything in the universe, everything on earth. How magnificent does one have to be create the earth, weather, our bodies, plants, animals, oxygen, and make them interact with each other like they do? It’s amazing how everything created on earth works to support life in it’s own unique way, from the smallest of things (germs, bacteria, cells, ants) all the way to the biggest of things. It absolutely amazes me! There is still so much to learn about our ecosystem, so much that we haven’t even discovered.  Our Lord is amazing, His wisdom, understanding, and knowledge knows no end! It makes me wonder how we can ever question Him?

Back to Proverbs 3:5-6,

Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
 in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.

Our God knows exactly what He is doing, and everything He does, He does because He loves us (John 3:16). How can we ever question Him? Lets put our trust in Him, and work hard at what we do and leave your doubts aside. With God on our side, what do we have to fear?

Romans 8:28-31

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.  For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified. What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?

As we hold onto the tree of wisdom, we must also keep our trust in God. In dong so the God of the universe, the Creator of all will be on our wide. What than do we have to fear, what can’t we do?

Philippians 4:13

I can do all this through him who gives me strength.

Journal Entry: Faith and Trust

March 25th

Who am I to become? I live in a society that tells me to be carefree. Do what feels good. I don’t buy this. I look to the bible. This is where it becomes difficult. I can not find a solid answer. I find the bible to be the most complex thing in the world. It can’t be understood. There is a contradiction to everything. Not in a way which it has to be either black or white, with black and white both saying they are right. But in a way which we have blue and yellow statements, and we must hold them both tight to create green. Paradox. The bible is made up of paradoxes, and I can not understand them. So who am I to become? Should I drop everything for God? Get up and leave my family without goodbye? Where would I go? What would I do? Or do I continue my life the way it is. Do my best at everything I do, giving praise to God? I do not know. I am told people will hate me because of Christ. What if no one hates me? Am I doing it wrong? How am I to live? Who I am to become? I can not answer this. I feel dissatisfied. I can’t live in foolishness. Foolishness ends in death. How do I live according to God? Do I want to live for God? Of course I do. So how? I am unsure. How am I to live? I find myself repeating this question, unable to answer. Where do I turn? It is unknown. One thing I do know is I must trust. Must have faith. Faith in the unknown. Trust God will take me there. So it is by faith and trust that I shall live. Where this will lead me, I do not know. But it is my only option. Trusting in someone I cannot know exists. Is this foolishness? I hope not. It is faith. For it is faith I shall live by. Faith and Trust. It’s all I can do. It’s what I must do.