So I’m going to write a little differently tonight, I want to write more on a reflection of what I have learned at basic thus far. I’m going to call today’s review, “Whom Shall I Fear.” — What do I fear and worry about in life? Right now for me it’s Drill Sergeants and getting mail. Drill Sergeants act like they are our god. And essentially they are. They control every last little thing we do. The only thing we have control of is our thoughts and even that, they can have some kind of control of. If we don’t do what they say they can punish us through working out for as long and as hard as they want. It is very easy to be stressed out by them and to fear them and even more, give them control of how they make us feel. It’s really easy to give them control after two hours of working out and you are at complete muscle failure and they are still yelling at you. They act like they are god and it is all to easy to give them that control over us. But check this, Luke 15:13, “May the God of hope fill you with ALL joy & peace in believing.” On top of that, who created life, and who can do all things? Who holds control of our soul? Is it our drill sergeants? No. It’s God above. What we have to realize is, no matter how much control our drill sergeants, or really anyone, has over us, their power over us was given to them by God. Like Pontius Pilate & Jesus. Pilate really had no say whether or not Jesus would be crucified, that control was in God’s hands. He just used Pilate for His will. The thing is, no one, no situation, nothing has control over us that is not God or has been given by God. It doesn’t matter how bad a situation is, God can do anything but you got to have faith that He can & will. Look at the characters in the bible, especially during Jesus’ time. One women was healed simply because she had faith if she touched Jesus’ robes that she would be healed, and several people who were dead[when writing this, I head dead people confused with sick people], were raised to life simply cause someone had enough faith to seek Jesus for help. We have to make our requests known to God. At basic over and over gain, I’ve been doing that and God has been providing. The time that comes to mind[found here] first is when our drill sergeant was super mad at us. He told us we were going to die tonight cause he was going to smoke us all night when we get back to our bay. So I prayed right away and I felt this reassurance from God that He would take care of it through His power & we wouldn’t have to get smoked. So a few hours pass & we get back to the bay. Our drill sergeant is still mad and promises we won’t be getting any sleep cause he will be smoking us all night. So he has all line up to get smoked. I pray again and remembered what God had told me earlier, so I kept faith. Then our drill sergeant had to go downstairs. He left and we were all dead silent. He came back up maybe 15 mins later. He tells us all to go to bed and that we are lucky because the commander told him we have to go to bed and that he’s not allowed to smoke us that night. The thing is we have to have faith. There is nothing in any situation that He can’t do. We have to realize who really has control. It’s God. Nothing else in life. Nothing. If our God is for us, who can stand against?
— An hour before I wrote this, I was a little depressed because our drill sergeant had left already without getting us our mail which would mean we would have to wait until monday night to get our mail. I’ve been waiting all week to hopefully get mail. Well, as soon as I finished writing, ‘Who can stand against’ I put this notebook away. Then 2 mins later, a different drill sergeant came up into our bay and gave us our mail! I was ecstatic, but it gets even better. I only got one letter, and it was from my parents for my birthday. The card had just arrived today! All week long I’ve been praying that our drill sergeant would hand out our mail, but he never did. Today I got mail, so a different drill sergeant came up and gave us our mail.
I can’t imagine how depressed I would have been if everyday we got handed our mail and I wouldn’t have gotten anything until today. There are two lessons I learn from this. Again, God is always in control looking out for us and that nobody can stand in the way of Him and two, patience. God is faithful to our prayers when we have faith and trust in Him. But sometimes we need to wait, be patient because the timing just ins’t right yet and He is protecting us. If we are faithful to Him in the small things, He will be faithful to us in the big things even though we don’t deserve it. If our God is for us, who can stand against?